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In this (almost) 2WW, insanity has been my friend.  And I think I mentioned before – as has google.

In my trawls I found this really interesting table that I found really helpful for anyone going through this process.  It breaks it all down step by step on what (hopefully) happens with a 5 day (blastocyst) transfer:

  • -1 dpt    Embryo is growing and developing
  • 0 dpt   Embryo is now a blastocyst
  • 1 dpt   Blastocyst hatches out of shell on this day
  • 2 dpt   Blastocyst attaches to a site on the uterine lining
  • 3 dpt   Implantation begins, as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining
  • 4 dpt   Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining
  • 5 dpt   Morula is completely implanted in the lining and has placenta cells and fetal cells
  • 6 dpt   Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood
  • 7 dpt   More HCG is produced as fetus develops
  • 8 dpt   More HCG is produced as fetus develops
  • 9 dpt   HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on HPT.

I’ve had no particular symptoms.  I’ve been analysing even twinge in my belly and every small pain in my back.  But I’ve had no real pains, my boobs haven’t felt any different etc.  I was feeling bloated up until last Thursday, but that eased off.  I convinced myself the treatment hadn’t worked.  I decided to do the test a day early because I was supposed to take it on Monday morning (today), but I wanted to have Sunday to get over the upset if it came back negative.  I knew I wouldn’t want to face work.

But…..turns out I was wrong.  It was positive!  Instantly.  No waiting 2 minutes.

As soon as hubby woke up I told him.  His big boyish grin reassured me he was happy.

After work today, I went and bought 2 more tests.  I still can’t believe it.  I took one straight away when I got in, which again confirmed the positive result.  I will take another one tomorrow.  Just to be sure……

I am now booked for a scan on 24 April.  I’m not sure I will believe it until after that.  I am still yet to be able to say the words out loud either.  I am pregnant.  It might be a while before I can.

 

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I use the word dream alot.

I dream of being a mum, having a family etc etc.  But I don’t really mean dream, I mean that is my ambition….my goal…..my desire.

This morning however, I was freaked out about a dream I had last night.  I never remember my dreams, so the fact I remember even this small fraction of a dream spooked me.  And I didn’t dream of having a baby in my arms, or seeing a little child running around……but of getting a positive pregnancy test.

As dreams go, they are never completely normal, so I just remember seeing the cross appear on the test…..as well as another little window, but instead of saying pregnant, it said daughter.  Hubby was with me and there was a pure moment of disbelief and joy.

I wonder if that dream will ever come true (bar the sex of the baby window!).

 

Looking back over my previous posts and I realise as much as I’ve written a lot, I’ve not really said much at all.

I recently found another blog that spoke about trying to conceive (TTC) and it was very helpful because it went into detail!!!

So I’m going to try and tell you more….just in case some of you are also TTC.

So, I’ll start at the beginning. Apologies if there is some repetition from earlier posts.

Five and a half years ago, my husband and I got married. But my story goes back a little further. Ever since I ‘matured’ I’ve never had regular periods. So, at 17, I went on the pill….both for contraception, but to also help regulate my periods. Fast forward again now to 2006. It was approximately a year before the wedding and I purchased my wedding dress…..yay!! As soon as I bought the dress, silly as this sounds, I became paranoid about getting pregnant and not being able to fit in it!! How little did I know! Once it got to 6 months before the wedding…..this was when I really started panicking – again ridiculous as I was still on the pill! But we were getting married abroad….and I’d paid a fortune for this dress. I was expecting something to jeopardise that.

Once we got to 3 months before the wedding, I relaxed. I then actually started thinking – it would be perfect if I could fall pregnant now. I knew that at 3 months I probably wouldn’t be showing, and what an announcement to make at the wedding!! But common sense prevailed. We were getting married abroad, and then going on honeymoon for 2 weeks – so basically away for a month. I didn’t want to then have a period whilst on holiday!!! Or worse yet – on our wedding day!!
So I stayed on the pill so that I could skip a period as needed.

So a fabulous wedding and honeymoon later…..we returned home. The pill packet went straight in the bin. Each month for the next 3 months, I came on, regular as clockwork, the same as when I was on the pill. Then nothing. One month went by………then a second……dare I consider I’m pregnant???

As I sat in the toilet after peeing on a stick, nerves made those 2 minutes seem like hours. For nothing!! Negative. Gutted is an understatement. A third month, and several pregnancy tests later, I book an appointment at the doctor – still with a false hope. Although friends mean to be helpful – coming out with all these stories of people who have false pregnancy tests and get to giving birth without realising they are pregnant really doesn’t help.

When in the doctors office, the nurse asked me what they could do for me. I explained and she asks me, “do you feel pregnant?”. How the hell do I know? I’ve never been pregnant before!! I feel weird, but how much of that is in my head???

The doctor does another pregnancy test – again another pleasant experience. Doing it in your own bathroom is one thing, but having to carry a cup of pee through the doctors waiting room – NICE!! Every shred of dignity gone! And then him confirming its negative. Right then. That’s it. What now????

It was at this point I was sent away with a blood test form to test for hormone levels and a referral for an internal ultrasound.

With blood tests relating to fertility – they have to be done at certain points in your cycle. Fine and dandy for people with normal periods….but HELLOOOOO….that’s why I’m here!!! I don’t have a regular cycle. How can I know when is 5 days before my period when I haven’t had one in 3 months???

I will write again next time describing the tests…….