Archives for the month of: April, 2017

I went for a scan today.

After the spotting last week (thankfully only for 4 days), and my own sense of disbelief, the scan finally proved it to me today. I am pregnant.

There was one sticky bean out of the two…..and my husband is more than a little relieved about that!!  The image was obviously very small but you could see the heartbeat flickering away.

I go back for another scan next week. 

I feel so lucky that at such an early stage, I already have two pictures of this munchkin. Not everyone can say they have a picture of themselves as a small embryo! 

So now he/she just needs to hold on tight. Fingers crossed.

Why do issues always arise on a weekend or bank holiday?

Easter Monday I woke up to find I had started spotting.  It’s amazing how quickly the panic started rising within me.

I called the non emergency NHS number, who in turn got a doctor to call me back. That phone call was the first time I said it out loud – that I am 5 weeks pregnant. It was just the harsh reality of having to follow that with – and I’ve started bleeding.

Ultimately…..I have just a few spots in the last 48 hours, so I am hoping all will be ok. The doctor said at this point it wasn’t a cause for concern and I didn’t need to go and see anyone.  I still have my scan next week, so I just have to hope and pray it actually shows a bubba and a heartbeat.  I have never wanted to wish my life away more…..I just want to fast forward until after the scan so I know either way.

I have to reiterate. This is not for the faint hearted! 

Despite these sticks showing clear positives over 3 different days, I still cannot believe that this means there is a little bubba growing inside of me.  After reading so many stories on the Internet, I just keep thinking these are false positives. 

I have a scan a week tomorrow. If I see something on the screen, then I might finally believe it.

I’m doing everything I should be though. I am still taking my Progynova 3 times a day and the Progesterone pessaries twice a day.  I seem to have alarms going off left right and centre to remind me! I am also taking vitamins for pregnant ladies.  I’ve also stopped drinking which has resulted in a few raised eyebrows from close family. Being the Greek Orthadox Easter this weekend has really made it difficult! I may have to cave and tell the family ahead of the scan.

Just in case this is real, I have also downloaded a pregnancy app on my phone, have started taking sideways photos to create a time lapse video should I get to full term and I have started moisturising my whole body twice a day to try and help reduce or prevent any stretch marks.

Symptom wise…..well this is the bit that concerns me…..I seem to be severely lacking. I found an online calculator for IVF due dates, and according to that, should there be 1 bubba, I would be due on 15 December. If it is twins it would be earlier. Anyway – that basically puts me at 5 weeks along. More often than not, I have a feeling in my belly that is a cross between period pain and trapped wind. Some days I feel bloated, others I’m not. I feel thirst permanently and my feet, hands and lips feel permanently dry. Even with moisturising twice a day, I am going through ALOT of hand cream too!  With all of these though, I feel like these could be side effects of the medication and not a clear indication of a sticky bean.

Everyone refers to the killer 2WW, but I know feel like I am in that all over again until my scan to know for sure. This process is not for the faint hearted. 

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In this (almost) 2WW, insanity has been my friend.  And I think I mentioned before – as has google.

In my trawls I found this really interesting table that I found really helpful for anyone going through this process.  It breaks it all down step by step on what (hopefully) happens with a 5 day (blastocyst) transfer:

  • -1 dpt    Embryo is growing and developing
  • 0 dpt   Embryo is now a blastocyst
  • 1 dpt   Blastocyst hatches out of shell on this day
  • 2 dpt   Blastocyst attaches to a site on the uterine lining
  • 3 dpt   Implantation begins, as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining
  • 4 dpt   Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining
  • 5 dpt   Morula is completely implanted in the lining and has placenta cells and fetal cells
  • 6 dpt   Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood
  • 7 dpt   More HCG is produced as fetus develops
  • 8 dpt   More HCG is produced as fetus develops
  • 9 dpt   HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on HPT.

I’ve had no particular symptoms.  I’ve been analysing even twinge in my belly and every small pain in my back.  But I’ve had no real pains, my boobs haven’t felt any different etc.  I was feeling bloated up until last Thursday, but that eased off.  I convinced myself the treatment hadn’t worked.  I decided to do the test a day early because I was supposed to take it on Monday morning (today), but I wanted to have Sunday to get over the upset if it came back negative.  I knew I wouldn’t want to face work.

But…..turns out I was wrong.  It was positive!  Instantly.  No waiting 2 minutes.

As soon as hubby woke up I told him.  His big boyish grin reassured me he was happy.

After work today, I went and bought 2 more tests.  I still can’t believe it.  I took one straight away when I got in, which again confirmed the positive result.  I will take another one tomorrow.  Just to be sure……

I am now booked for a scan on 24 April.  I’m not sure I will believe it until after that.  I am still yet to be able to say the words out loud either.  I am pregnant.  It might be a while before I can.

 

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Crazy lady is officially here.

The two week wait (2WW) is incredibly hard and its only been 3 days!  Over analysing everything, and I mean EVERYTHING.  Every tiny twinge in the belly, every small ache in my back, every time I need to go to the loo.  I switch constantly between, ‘is this it happening (meaning implantation)?’ or ‘these are period symptoms, I bet I come on shortly and it will all be over’.

I’ve not been back into the office since transfer day either.  Maybe when I go back in on Monday, that will help take my mind off things.   I hope so!

Just a few updates though:

I have stopped:

  • Taking my multivitamins. I realised late in this process that the multivitamins I was taking have Vitamin A and so are not recommended for those pregnant or trying to become pregnant.  Right now that is at least one less pill to take!
  • Drinking as much Coke.  I actually went to the trouble of googling how much caffeine there was in a can of Coke Zero and the amount a pregnant woman is allowed.  There is a lot less in Coke Zero than I realised – but I have cut down drastically on how much I was drinking.  And that’s been through choice a lot of the time – I’ve just not fancied it as much.

I have continued:

  • Taking my Progynova tablets – one, three times a day;
  • Using the Cylogest Progesterone Pessaries;
  • Taking my folic acid supplements;
  • Eating a balanced diet, although being a little more careful.  Missing prawns already!

I have started:

  • Taking naps!  A quick afternoon snooze.  I am not reading into this too much.  It is more likely to be from the progesterone than pregnancy;
  • Being obsessed with You tube videos of how implantation works. Watching them wondering whether either of our little beans have stuck and survived.

8 more days to go until this misery is over one way or another!