Archives for the month of: September, 2015

  
So round 2 of Clomid is done.  I should have re-read my previous posts, because I’d forgotten about the trouble sleeping….but as last time, as soon as I finished the tablets, my sleeping went back to normal.

Because I had already had 1 ‘successful’ round of Clomid, the doctor told me to wait until day 10 for my next scan. However, it would help if the hospital answered the telephone to book an appointment. I rang and rang and rang.  I was letting the phone ring out until it cut off – giving up before I did!  

So on day 10, I was working close to the hospital, so went in on my lunch break.  All they could tell me was they were short staffed! Anyway, they couldn’t fit in a quick scan, so I just booked one for a week after ovulation. That was what I had been told to do last month. 

The medication does seem to be keeping me on the right path time wise.  My period arrived exactly 28 days after the start of my first one. And yesterday, I tested positive with the ovulation test – bang on 14 days.  I could get used to this knowing when things happen malarkey!  So I seem to be following the same trend as last month, although I don’t know exactly how many eggs have matured to be released. 

I’ve been paying particular attention the last few days as well, to any twinges I’ve felt. It appears the pain I felt last month was either a one off or something unrelated as this time round, bar a few pangs, have experienced no pain through ovulation.

But knowing dates mean you know when you need to get jiggy with it.  Many of you will know this if you’ve tried to get pregnant….but you say bye bye to being spontaneous and where sex is fun, to it being a chore and having to ‘negotiate’ schedules. I chuckled to myself last night as my husband and I were discussing it yesterday….’not tonight, but I can squeeze you in here….’

So here we go again….lets see if we get lucky this month!

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On Monday I had another scan.  This was 13 days after my positive ovulation test.

It confirmed that I released 2 eggs.  And that although my lining with thicker than it was without the medication….it could still be thicker.  The doctor said that if I wasn’t pregnant this time round, she would likely give me medication to improve that as well.

What confused me, was that she wasn’t able to tell, either way, from the scan whether I was pregnant or not.  Is that normal? She seemed to think so!

On Wednesday though, Mother Nature paid me a visit. So that’s a big, resounding, YOU ARE NOT pregnant. 

I know I should be patient because this was the first month with a real chance at falling….but that does stop the stab of disappointment. And when I say stab…I mean right through the friggin heart…where the knife has stuck and twisted.  Ok….I’m being melodramatic. But it’s frustrating….to take so long to get this far….which I realise just means I’ve finally got a chance to step onto the playing field. Never mind scoring a goal……since when did I start using sport analogies?!

Anyway. I am now on the next round of Clomid.  So fingers crossed again.

I’ve also taken the opportunity to look back and re-evaluate whether I feel I’ve had any side effects.  I didn’t think I had…when I was taking the tablets. I am taking them at night as I planned because it seemed to work for me last time.

2 aspects I am going to keep an eye on this time round is ovulation and my overall mood.  The day of my positive test and the next I did feel quite a bit of discomfort with frequent sharp stabbing pains.  In all honesty I thought it was just wind….but it may well have been the ovulating that caused the pain. I’ll see if it happens again.

My overall mood will be more difficult, but looking back I have struggled more this month and had a lot more ‘woe is me’ moments.  I always try to be a positive person, but there were some really low points this month.  Again…not sure if that was just me….or if the medication played a hand in that. This month I’ll hopefully know more!

So….here we go again. If we don’t succeed this month, I’m going to make sure the doctor refers me for IVF. She mentioned it at my appointment and confirmed there is a 4 month waiting list. I’d rather be on that and cancel, then not and add in more waiting time into this very protracted process!

On Friday, I went for another scan.  An interesting point for anyone going to have a scan…..they always say have an empty bladder.  Well mine was when I got there….but I ended up waiting a loooong time! Although I didn’t feel a desperate need, apparently my bladder was full.  This meant it really got in the way….making it look like an eclipse of my womb! So if you are going to have a scan…..do nip to the loo beforehand if you have any doubt!!

So the scan showed at least 2 or 3 eggs were growing! Yay!

I was told to start testing for ovulation from Sunday and take it from there.  I was worried, because I have done so many of those tests, but they have NEVER shown a positive for me.  But despite my concern, off I went to the chemist for the tests!

Every morning I started peeing on those sticks. And then on Tuesday morning…..I got a positive! Pure elation….you would have thought it was an actual pregnancy test!!! 

Work for us both meant that baby dancing didn’t happen as much as I would have liked….but I guess we now just have to see.  I am booked in for another scan in another 10 days.  I’m being realistic and am not going to expect this miracle to happen in month one….but the fact the medication is working means I feel like the playing field has been evened out……I now have the same odds as any normal, fertile woman!  How good does that feel?!

It’s nice to finally have a small positive thing to cling to.