Archives for the month of: February, 2013

Well, more results came back this week. And more results have confirmed there is nothing wrong!
So, I’ve been tested to the hilt and back and my husband has now too.

Is it weird to have actually hoped the tests found something? At least then there would be a reason for us not conceiving, as well as the possibility of treatment…..now all I feel is we’re still stuck in limbo land.

Back to square one we go then!!!

So, I’m going to take a step back and go back to the simple methods. It’s going to cost me a fortune in ovulation kits and god knows what, but it’s still cheaper than IVF.

My husband has a few other tests to do (for other health reasons, nothing to do with fertility) so we’re going to focus our minds on that first. The last few months feel like we’ve been at that doctors surgery every other week.

I am feeling a little weird right now – for some reason I feel completely devastated as well as so overly optimistic. Such a strange contradiction with a glimmer of hope for the future. I am on such a hormonal roller coaster ride now it’s exhausting.

What will be will be. I so hope that what is meant to be is what I want though!!

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I know blogs aren’t generally aimed at being interactive, but on this occasion I am looking for someone to help me translate the picture attached.

What does it say???

This picture was given to me years ago by a family friend who no longer wanted it. Since then, it has been in my bedroom.

Is it bad luck? Should I be removing it from the bedroom? Is it going to remain a mystery?? Can anyone help me?!?

I guess I have started clutching at straws around superstitions. Is this one picture the reason why we’ve not managed to conceive? Is there a hidden curse in there?? It’s probably a beautiful saying, or perhaps a really random one that means absolutely nothing….but I’d like to know!! Can anyone help ease my mind??

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I’ve now got 3 weeks off of work 😀
Fab!
Which means I’ve committed to having a clear out and spring clean.
In doing so, it means I’ve ended up taking a trip down memory lane…..some of the books I used to read when I was little, old certificates, school reports and even my first plane ticket!!!

I like to keep memories, but I also want to keep these books from my childhood for my own children. The books are a little tatty I’ll grant you that, but they are timeless classics!!! They never did me any harm!!

I’m not entirely sure what the weeks ahead will bring. I had to take the leave from work as the end of the year was looming and I still had too much left.

I was hoping that during these weeks I would need to go to Cyprus for a job interview after biting the bullet and taking the plunge with the application. Unfortunately I didn’t hear back after all those nerves, so that seems to be off the cards 😦

In addition, tomorrow being the first working day off….it’s back to the doctors for some more tests. Hopefully we’ll get through the day without too much stress and I can get on with relaxing. Maybe even digging out a few more memories will be part of the week!