Archives for the month of: November, 2012

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I looked back at some of my previous posts. I’ve realised that I am avoiding writing how I feel by sharing some touching or funny stories. Don’t get me wrong, I love those stories and really wanted to share them, but in theory this is supposed to me helping myself through this time, and I’m not!!

So for today, I thought I’d make myself spill the beans!

I need a life! That’s how I’m feeling right now! Because of work, both mine and my husbands, we don’t see each other as much any more. I work days, and there are several occasions when he works evenings. This means there are several evenings (like tonight) where I am sitting here doing nothing productive.

I am one of those people that like to be busy. And right now I am far from it. So it’s times like this when I feel the desire for a baby more and more. I know people with kids say not to knock this time to yourself, that once kids come along I’ll never have a moment to myself etc. I guess that’s just human nature, you want what you can’t have. It’s like girls with straight hair wanting curly hair and those with curly hair wanting straight hair (a weird comparison I know but it’s what jumped into m head!).

I’m not moaning about having time to myself and I’m not moaning about not seeing my husband. I appreciate everything I have in my life, but I just want to continue us growing. To me that means moving on to the next stage. I’m bang splat in the middle of another baby boom with friends as well which doesn’t help. Some are now pregnant with their second or third child, and that’s what hurts even more.

I still hope and pray that it will happen for us. I’m not silly enough to think that falling pregnant will solve everything and that life will be all rosy. Kids are bloody hard work and I relish that thought. Someone might need to remind me of that at times in the future when struggling with the terrible twos, or dealing with teenage PMT! But right now, I’m ready to embrace it all.

Keep your fingers crossed for me! I need all the help I can get!!

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Don’t forget to make time for those that matter. I found this beautiful story earlier:-

After 21 years of marriage, my wife wanted me to take another woman out to dinner and a movie. She said, “I love you, but I know this other woman loves you and would love to spend some time with you.”

The other woman that my wife wanted me to visit was my MOTHER, who has been a widow for 19 years, but the demands of my work and my three children had made it possible to visit her only occasionally
. That night I called to invite her to go out for dinner and a movie. “What’s wrong, are you well?” she asked.

My mother is the type of woman who suspects that a late night call or a surprise invitation is a sign of bad news. “I thought that it would be pleasant to spend some time with you,” I responded. “Just the two of us.” She thought about it for a moment, and then said, “I would like that very much.”

That Friday after work, as I drove over to pick her up I was a bit nervous. When I arrived at her house, I noticed that she, too, seemed to be nervous about our date. She waited in the door with her coat on. She had curled her hair and was wearing the dress that she had worn to celebrate her last wedding anniversary. She smiled from a face that was as radiant as an angel’s. “I told my friends that I was going to go out with my son, and they were impressed, “she said, as she got into the car. “They can’t wait to hear about our meeting.”

We went to a restaurant that, although not elegant, was very nice and cozy. My mother took my arm as if she were the First Lady. After we sat down, I had to read the menu. Her eyes could only read large print. Half way through the entries, I lifted my eyes and saw Mom sitting there staring at me. A nostalgic smile was on her lips. “It was I who used to have to read the menu when you were small,” she said. “Then it’s time that you relax and let me return the favor,” I responded. During the dinner, we had an agreeable conversation – nothing extraordinary but catching up on recent events of each other’s life. We talked so much that we missed the movie. As we arrived at her house later, she said, “I’ll go out with you again, but only if you let me invite you.” I agreed.

“How was your dinner date?” asked my wife when I got home. “Very nice. Much more so than I could have imagined,” I answered.

A few days later, my mother died of a massive heart attack. It happened so suddenly that I didn’t have a chance to do anything for her. Some time later, I received an envelope with a copy of a restaurant receipt from the same place mother and I had dined. An attached note said: “I paid this bill in advance. I wasn’t sure that I could be there; but nevertheless, I paid for two plates – one for you and the other for your wife. You will never know what that night meant for me. I love you, son.”

At that moment, I understood the importance of saying in time: “I LOVE YOU” and to give our loved ones the time that they deserve. Nothing in life is more important than your family. Give them the time they deserve, because these things cannot be put off till “some other time.”

It’s all relative. We each see the same thing differently and who is to judge which way is right?!?

Saw this today and it made me chuckle…..

During a visit to the mental asylum, I asked the director how do you determine whether or not a patient should be institutionalised.
“Well”, said the director, “we fill up a bathtub, then we offer a teaspoon, a teacup and a bucket to the patient and ask him or her to empty the bathtub.”
“Oh, I understand,” I said, “a normal person would use the bucket because its bigger than the spoon or the teacup.”
“No.” Said the director, “a normal person would pull the plug. Do you want a bed near the window?”

How many of us don’t take the obvious easy road because we didn’t even think of it?!

(Apologies to anyone with mental health issues who may have been institutionalised in the past. I mean no offence.)

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……lest we forget.

On the 11th hour of the 11th day of the 11th month…..

They went with songs to the battle, they were young,
Straight of limb, true of eye, steady and aglow.
They were staunch to the end against odds uncounted,
They fell with their faces to the foe.

They shall grow not old, as we that are left grow old;
Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn.
At the going down of the sun and in the morning
We will remember them. ♥ xxx

Always grateful to those who have up their today for our tomorrow.

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Well that time came again, the anniversary of the day I was born!

Birthdays are funny things. We refer to being a year older, even though in reality it is only one day older than the day before! Another year wiser? Hmmmmm, not so sure about that either!

Regardless, I am one to use my birthday as an excuse to celebrate with friends and family.

I didn’t have a hang up this year about the age – I really did feel that age is but a number (thank God, because when I turned 30 I admit, I struggled to get my head round it all!)

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My hubby bought me my favourite choccys too. Despite the fact he hates them! So for the first time ever, I actually ate the entire box without any assistance from anyone!! Little miss piggy here!!

Over a few days of celebrating I had fun, watched crashes (banger racing!), danced, drank, ate and was merry. All with the most important people in my life.

I am truly blessed to have such people in my life. I will always be grateful for them.

So, this weekend was about celebrating a belated Halloween. A mid week halloween wasn’t ideal.

But, my husband is a DJ and plays a radio set every Saturday. Which doesn’t support a healthy social life at times!

The answer was an online party in the radio chat room. The chat room has web cams so we could see each other dressed up. It’s cheap and cheerful and means those who can’t normally participate get to have fun too.

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Some of the listeners are disabled, have kids, have serious illnesses or are skint!! The one thing we do all have in common is our love of music.

A good night was had all round without spending a fortune!! As it wasn’t possible for us to all be together, this was the next best thing! Technology really can help bring people together. The party was worldwide with at least 5 different time zones represented – from Australia to Canada and places in between!!!

I hope you all enjoyed your halloween celebrations!