Archives for the month of: August, 2012

I needed a distraction.  I’ve found out the last few weeks that a few friends are pregnant.  Everywhere I go there seem to be pregnant ladies.  I need something to take my mind away from babies!

So, I’ve been taking a few little trips.  Nothing major – just either for the day or for one overnight, but a change of scenery to lift my mood!

First I went North….



I stayed in this quaint little hotel with a fabulous pool!  And for a bargain.


The bright sunshine was enough to lift anyone’s mood!

Later on in the week I headed South…..I combined it with a work visit, so it meant I didn’t pay for it either!  Its all the more enjoyable when its free!



We have some wonderful sights in this country, but I have to confess I spend most of the time wishing to be somewhere else!  When I go on holiday, I always explore…taking in the sights and seeing as much as possible.  Yet there is so much in the UK that I haven’t seen!  Its time to change that and make more of an effort to see the country I live in!

Keeping busy is helping.  And for a few hours on those days, I do forget (almost) about whats going on (or not as the case may be).

One day hopefully I’ll be able to revisit some of these places with my child……

I’m not giving up hope yet!



I’m currently in full appreciation mode right now.  I’m finding myself looking at every day things as though it is the first time again.  Its exhilarating.

The other day I had a meeting in London.  A journey I’ve made many times.  And many times I’ve just had my head down – mixing in with all the other unhappy faces in the crowd!  This time I opened my eyes and looked around me.  I forgot how great London can be and how fascinating it is.


The journey starts at the train station.  An amazing building in itself with a long long history!


This wonderful cathedral set back off the main road – next door to House of Fraser!  Seems mad to have old and new alongside each other.


This quirky little pub – completely out of place surrounded by high rise office blocks!


And television studios!  I have to admit I try and spot a celebrity every time I walk past here!!!

So, I’d like to advise you all – look around you when doing your every day journeys.  Don’t miss out on the good stuff going on around!  Because I paid attention to these things, I enjoyed my journey into work…….and bought a smile to my face.

What are you missing out on??


Its not really a secret that the UK is not having the best of summers!

However, it does appear that the Olympics were a lucky charm around the opening & closing ceremonies!

So last weekend I took advantage. I abandoned any notion of housework and took myself off to the garden with my book….

I love the garden!


And got my Olympic painted toes out to catch some colour!

The sunshine really rejuvenates the soul. I was so content over that weekend and truly relaxed. I really need to get my arse into gear & move to a country where the sun shines a lot more!!!

Here is to hoping we squeeze a few more sunny days in before Autumn comes!

Today I visited a truly inspirational sight……

Last year, the riots of London were all over the news. Croydon, my home town, was one of the areas effected. Fires were rife through the town causing devastation to many.  We are far enough away not to have suffered any loss or damage, but close enough that our house stunk of smoke & burning through that night & the next day.  Our cars were covered with a thin layer of ash too!

A landmark of Croydon was destroyed. Ok it was a furniture shop, but everyone knew it.


Its a year on from the fire. They had 2 buildings.  The surviving building is now an inspiration.


The entire building is completely.covered in personal messages from people all over the country.


I was touched as I looked at them all….a real sense of community is still alive!

There are still plenty of good people in this world & to me, this building is letting them shine. X


It has been a big week for us this week…..

It was my husband’s birthday on Thursday.  A few friends also celebrated their birthdays in the same week, so we had a small party.

It was a good night, filled with good friends & laughter.  We finally rolled home at 7am, truly knackered!

In addition, my husband also found out he got a job! He has been unemployed for over 5 years, so this was a truly life changing event.

When we got the news, I was thrilled & so proud.  It also helped me think that everything is starting to fall into place. Maybe we haven’t fallen pregnant because the time truly isn’t right. I began to feel optimistic that we were working our way towards that ‘right time’.

But, at the party, it seemed like us having children was the topic on everyone’s mind.  Maybe it didn’t help that a number of them are midwives so deal with babies daily. I felt like we were being interrogated at times about whether we were going to have them, when & how many.

How many times can we make up different excuses?? My latest one now is that I’m worried about having a child born in 2013. I mean come on! Even I laugh at the patheticness of that comment!!! But people buy it (I think).

As much as I was able to laugh it off on the night, it has gone deeper than that. I am low now, and can feel the ‘woe is me’ frame of mind creeping in. I’ll let myself wallow for another day before snapping myself out of it.

I still have a lot to be grateful for & I know that.  Plus a 12 year old lical girl has been missing since Friday. These scary things help put things in perspective.

It will happen for us one day I hope. I pray for that time every day.



I went for lunch with a friend today.  We met several years ago when he started working for me.  We’ve both moved on to different jobs since, but have kept in touch.

Today, we went to a local pub. As I scoured the menu for the best deal he just laughed at me.  He found it hilarious that I was checking out every single special deal & choosing which one I wanted.  He went on to explain that that was one of the things he thought he was great about me. I earn shedloads, yet I still hunt out a bargain!! I’m “keeping it real” he says!!

Ok. Lets get a few things straight.  I don’t earn shedloads! Granted I do earn more than him as I am a few grades above him, but I would class my salary as healthy! I wish it was shedloads!

Also, regardless of how much I earn, I’m not going to waste it!!! Why wouldn’t I go for the bargain??? Not going for it seems odd to me, not the other way round!!!

We went on to enjoy our lunch. 

On the way back to the office we had to pop into the small supermarket.  As my friend was paying he was asked for his loyalty card. He didn’t have one, so I didn’t waste a blink of an eye in getting mine out!!! When he asked why I bother collecting points I explained how those points transferred into air miles & that those babies were going to pay for my next holiday!!

Yet again, I didn’t help my cause in being tight. But, its got to be done!

So, I managed to get myself a Scrooge reputation this lunch time….I’m not going to change! Who out there doesn’t want something for nothing??? If there is someone who doesn’t…..I’ll have your share!!!