Today I completed the Race for life.  A terrific, albeit, emotional day.  This was my third year doing it.  Its even more convenient that it is held in the park 2 minutes from my house!

So almost 4000 of us girlies gathered together to raise money for Cancer Research….

And we’re off…..!

When you see sights like these, it touches you.  Cancer has probably touched each and every one of our lives.   One of my friends who did it for the first time this year found it overwhelming – a tear or two was shed!

A slight traffic jam in the woods along the way!

We all felt proud of ourselves at the end.  Its a great feeling.

Its days like this that get me thinking though.  It makes me realise we are all only human.  We get sick, it happens.  Some worse than others.

Your fears change over time.  When I was maybe 10 or 11, I was petrified I was going to be kidnapped.  Silly I know.  But it meant every night for at least a year, I would go to bed almost fully dressed because, then, if I did get taken I wouldn’t be cold! (a weird thought process I know!).

Through my twenties, my biggest fear was drowning.  Its still a fear don’t get me wrong, but that rated number one then.

Now, my biggest fear is not leaving my mark on the world.  And to me, that means not having children.  That is the only thing I feel I can leave behind that is truly a piece of me.  A building could be built – but that can be knocked down.  A tree could be planted – but that can be dug up.  A child’s life (hopefully) will go on after I’m gone and continue through the bloodline in years to come.

My brother in law died 11 and a half years ago to Leukemia.  He was 32.  He had no children.  I will be 32 next birthday.  So this plays heavily on my mind.

I am grateful for all that I have in my life – and my experiences in losing those close to me through illnesses like this have taught me to make every day count.  Don’t sweat the little things.  But, I hope in the future my worst fear doesn’t come true.

But enough wallowing! I’m off to enjoy whats left of this gorgeous sunny day!

 

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